Old jamm !
Jaheim.
Hey loverlies.
Sorry I haven't posted in decades it seems.
I've been super busy.
School, basketball, all that good stuff.
Well not good, but you know what I mean.
Duke is officially the only number one seed left in the NCAA Tourney.
Please excuse my current excitement, which will be depicted through the following.
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Yeah, that's how I feel about it.
They play Baylor tomorrow [well really, its today, considering it's 1:20 AM]
Anyway, I'm super tired.
Like crazy.
Wes and I are okay.
He's acting weird and I'm just like "menhh whatever".
I'm not interested in his BS tonight.
Sorry.
But other than that we're good.
Kaitlyn stopped by today.
That was interesting.
I was basically just sitting here laughing the entire time.
And Mom was laughing also.
Yeaaaah.
My life has been pretty boring lately.
Oh, I wrote some OSTG.
It royally sucked, so per Twin's suggestions, I'm making changes.
Aka: re-writing the entire thing.
I basically hate everything I wrote originally.
I just feel like its not good enough and never will be.
Much like how I feel about myself in many aspects.
Wow, this just turned emo.
Well anyway.
Like I've already said.
I'm totally exhausted.
So on that note.
Goodnight, loverlies.
OH, and allow me to also say this...
CONGRATULATIONS TO NOVA, KYLE, PEGGY, AND KYLIE FOR GETTING 2ND IN STATES AND NOW GOING TO WORLDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just thought I'd let that out.
I'm super proud of you guys, in case you were wondering.
I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT!
(:
Now go to Worlds and make me proud!
Haha, I sound like a parent or something instead of a good friend.
Creeeeepy.
Anyway.
SHABBA!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
"So Jerid, How Are You Going To Feel When You Have 12 Year Old Girls Running From You?"
"I can't wait! I'm probably gonna like fill my pockets with bubble gum and lollipops, sprinkle them with gifts."
"Whooooo! Like a rape fairy!"
Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
My favorite line from the newest Shane video :]
He just happens to be the love of my life.
Well, my YouTube life.
Yo, yo, yo, mis peoples :]
Hey.
I. Be. @|_|_13 :]
Allie.
That's me.
*epic sigh*
So today was interesting.
Not that interesting.
Just like.
Ugh.
This morning I didn't wanna get up.
At all.
But when I did, I was okay.
Got dressed and ready.
Remembered to pack my lunch today.
Yogurt, Beanie Weenies, and Saltines.
Anyway.
Get to Health.
Basically got ignored by everyone (as usual).
Had to deal with Winston.
Ha, that was fun.
Then Health was good.
Decided whether or not to skip Math.
Decided not to.
And in between Health and Math.
Nova, Ireland and I went out on a little adventure to try to get the cat that was behind CVCC.
That was fun.
Except for the super cold.
Not.
Fun.
So then Math was pretty good.
We basically just talked the entire time.
We did work in spurts.
Nova did a lot of work though.
But Kyle, Ireland and I basically just ate and talked.
It was quite great.
So then we left Math and were eating our lunches and using the computers.
I called my mom.
Like I do everyday at that time.
And guess who had something to say about it?
Ariana.
And don't get me wrong.
I love her dearly.
To pieces, actually.
But okay.
She just gets on MY LAST NERVE sometimes.
And one thing that she does that bothers me.
Is answer my end of the conversation when I'm on the other end of the phone with my mom.
I.
ABSOLUTELY.
DESPISE.
THAT.
And then get this.
Today.
She asks me, "Allie, why do you always talk to your mom everyday?"
And honestly.
I COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY HATE WHEN PEOPLE ASK MY WHY I CALL MY MOM AND WHY I TALK TO HER ALL THE TIME.
BECAUSE I FUCKING WANT TO, THANKS! STFU AND LMTFA.
So I gave her an earful back.
And basically told her that it was none of her business and that I just do it because I want to, and because I'm close to her and because she just looks forward to hearing from me.
And went on to tell her that I didn't appreciate the fact that she sounded JUST like her uncle, Winston's dad, and that I was about ready to go physical on someone.
I was thinking "Your entire family is heartless and I just want to kill all of them", but I refrained from saying it.
Anywho.
Then Nova and Kyle wanted me to watch a video with them, so I scooted over there and watched it.
It was quite hilarious, actually.
And then I went back across the room and apologized to Ariana.
And she's avoided me ever since.
And honestly, I feel really bad.
And I know she's just going to run back and tell everyone what I said and how she hates me and all this.
And that's not what bothers me.
It's just my conscience that's killing me.
Because I know if someone had jumped on me like that I would have flipped.
And I also feel bad because she's my good friend.
And I totally jumped down her throat for absolutely no reason.
I guess I just took my frustration out on her by accident.
I mean I didn't mean to.
But I did.
And I'm sorry for it.
But she probably still hates me.
And I was coming out of the Teacher's Lounge at Liberty after making some copies for Mrs. Pruitt.
And she walked down the hall and I smiled at her and waved.
And she just looked at me and gave me a smart-alleck smirk.
Or maybe it was a smirk of hate.
Who knows.
Either way she didn't look like she was very happy with me.
And I don't blame her, honestly.
But I just feel really bad.
And I want to apologize again.
But I know she probably just won't accept it.
And again, I don't blame her.
I wouldn't forgive anyone who jumped on me like that either.
Not for a long time, anyway.
And I totally made a fool of myself in front of Nova, Kyle, and Ireland.
I was a total jerk.
And I don't like it.
Anyway, enough of that.
So then I went to Liberty.
That was okay.
Kinda got a little annoyed.
And of course by the time I got there I was in a bad mood.
Oh, and allow me to interject and add that I had a nice conversation and alone time with Aiden.
It was quite great :]
We left Math when it was over and stood outside the classroom and were talking.
I definitely enjoyed it.
We would have had more alone time.
Except for Winston coming in and ruining it.
And sitting RIGHT beside where I was sitting.
Oh.
And allow me to interject again and add something else.
Winston keeps doing this thing that I think is quite hilarious.
He keeps making references to "hot girls" or "hot chicks" or something of the sort in an effort to make me jealous.
Um, excuse me, we broke up.
Like.
Almost 6 months ago.
And you HONESTLY think I care if you call some girl hot?
Uhhh, you're sadly mistaken there.
I definitely don't.
Be with whatever hoe you want to be with.
I'll say this.
I'm not meaning to sound cocky when I say this, but instead confident.
He'll NEVER have another girl who compares to me.
Wes said the same thing, actually.
But anyway, I find it quite hilarious how Winston keeps trying to make me jealous.
Like he's trying to say "You should miss when you were with me, and since you don't, I'm going to make you by making you jealous".
Except I'm not jealous.
But anyway.
Went to Liberty, worked for Mrs. Pruitt.
Made tons of copies and typed a lot.
And these 4 girls I know came in and started practicing their little routine they're making up for the "Mr. LHS pageant".
It was cool.
I tried to help them.
But two of them absolutely hate me for no apparent reason.
And didn't really want my help.
But I tried anyway.
The other two were nice about it and said they liked my idea.
I mean I don't care either way, but whatever.
Anyway.
So then I left when the bell rang and talked to Marie and Carla.
Oh, and Tyler.
And then got on the bus.
FIF.TEEN.MINUTES.LATE.
The bus was 15 minutes late.
Which its always late.
But today it had to be late.
Because it was COLD.
Like blistering cold because of the wind.
So then I got on the bus and came home.
And here we are.
And I'm about to get off and go do my English homework that was assigned yesterday.
And then hopefully talk to Twin.
Then who knows?
SHABBA!
"Whooooo! Like a rape fairy!"
Hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
My favorite line from the newest Shane video :]
He just happens to be the love of my life.
Well, my YouTube life.
Yo, yo, yo, mis peoples :]
Hey.
I. Be. @|_|_13 :]
Allie.
That's me.
*epic sigh*
So today was interesting.
Not that interesting.
Just like.
Ugh.
This morning I didn't wanna get up.
At all.
But when I did, I was okay.
Got dressed and ready.
Remembered to pack my lunch today.
Yogurt, Beanie Weenies, and Saltines.
Anyway.
Get to Health.
Basically got ignored by everyone (as usual).
Had to deal with Winston.
Ha, that was fun.
Then Health was good.
Decided whether or not to skip Math.
Decided not to.
And in between Health and Math.
Nova, Ireland and I went out on a little adventure to try to get the cat that was behind CVCC.
That was fun.
Except for the super cold.
Not.
Fun.
So then Math was pretty good.
We basically just talked the entire time.
We did work in spurts.
Nova did a lot of work though.
But Kyle, Ireland and I basically just ate and talked.
It was quite great.
So then we left Math and were eating our lunches and using the computers.
I called my mom.
Like I do everyday at that time.
And guess who had something to say about it?
Ariana.
And don't get me wrong.
I love her dearly.
To pieces, actually.
But okay.
She just gets on MY LAST NERVE sometimes.
And one thing that she does that bothers me.
Is answer my end of the conversation when I'm on the other end of the phone with my mom.
I.
ABSOLUTELY.
DESPISE.
THAT.
And then get this.
Today.
She asks me, "Allie, why do you always talk to your mom everyday?"
And honestly.
I COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY HATE WHEN PEOPLE ASK MY WHY I CALL MY MOM AND WHY I TALK TO HER ALL THE TIME.
BECAUSE I FUCKING WANT TO, THANKS! STFU AND LMTFA.
So I gave her an earful back.
And basically told her that it was none of her business and that I just do it because I want to, and because I'm close to her and because she just looks forward to hearing from me.
And went on to tell her that I didn't appreciate the fact that she sounded JUST like her uncle, Winston's dad, and that I was about ready to go physical on someone.
I was thinking "Your entire family is heartless and I just want to kill all of them", but I refrained from saying it.
Anywho.
Then Nova and Kyle wanted me to watch a video with them, so I scooted over there and watched it.
It was quite hilarious, actually.
And then I went back across the room and apologized to Ariana.
And she's avoided me ever since.
And honestly, I feel really bad.
And I know she's just going to run back and tell everyone what I said and how she hates me and all this.
And that's not what bothers me.
It's just my conscience that's killing me.
Because I know if someone had jumped on me like that I would have flipped.
And I also feel bad because she's my good friend.
And I totally jumped down her throat for absolutely no reason.
I guess I just took my frustration out on her by accident.
I mean I didn't mean to.
But I did.
And I'm sorry for it.
But she probably still hates me.
And I was coming out of the Teacher's Lounge at Liberty after making some copies for Mrs. Pruitt.
And she walked down the hall and I smiled at her and waved.
And she just looked at me and gave me a smart-alleck smirk.
Or maybe it was a smirk of hate.
Who knows.
Either way she didn't look like she was very happy with me.
And I don't blame her, honestly.
But I just feel really bad.
And I want to apologize again.
But I know she probably just won't accept it.
And again, I don't blame her.
I wouldn't forgive anyone who jumped on me like that either.
Not for a long time, anyway.
And I totally made a fool of myself in front of Nova, Kyle, and Ireland.
I was a total jerk.
And I don't like it.
Anyway, enough of that.
So then I went to Liberty.
That was okay.
Kinda got a little annoyed.
And of course by the time I got there I was in a bad mood.
Oh, and allow me to interject and add that I had a nice conversation and alone time with Aiden.
It was quite great :]
We left Math when it was over and stood outside the classroom and were talking.
I definitely enjoyed it.
We would have had more alone time.
Except for Winston coming in and ruining it.
And sitting RIGHT beside where I was sitting.
Oh.
And allow me to interject again and add something else.
Winston keeps doing this thing that I think is quite hilarious.
He keeps making references to "hot girls" or "hot chicks" or something of the sort in an effort to make me jealous.
Um, excuse me, we broke up.
Like.
Almost 6 months ago.
And you HONESTLY think I care if you call some girl hot?
Uhhh, you're sadly mistaken there.
I definitely don't.
Be with whatever hoe you want to be with.
I'll say this.
I'm not meaning to sound cocky when I say this, but instead confident.
He'll NEVER have another girl who compares to me.
Wes said the same thing, actually.
But anyway, I find it quite hilarious how Winston keeps trying to make me jealous.
Like he's trying to say "You should miss when you were with me, and since you don't, I'm going to make you by making you jealous".
Except I'm not jealous.
But anyway.
Went to Liberty, worked for Mrs. Pruitt.
Made tons of copies and typed a lot.
And these 4 girls I know came in and started practicing their little routine they're making up for the "Mr. LHS pageant".
It was cool.
I tried to help them.
But two of them absolutely hate me for no apparent reason.
And didn't really want my help.
But I tried anyway.
The other two were nice about it and said they liked my idea.
I mean I don't care either way, but whatever.
Anyway.
So then I left when the bell rang and talked to Marie and Carla.
Oh, and Tyler.
And then got on the bus.
FIF.TEEN.MINUTES.LATE.
The bus was 15 minutes late.
Which its always late.
But today it had to be late.
Because it was COLD.
Like blistering cold because of the wind.
So then I got on the bus and came home.
And here we are.
And I'm about to get off and go do my English homework that was assigned yesterday.
And then hopefully talk to Twin.
Then who knows?
SHABBA!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
"I'm Like Girl Sit Down. You're Like Twelve".
Quote of yesterday!
Aliyah about this girl who is supposedly pregnant.
And on Formspring this guy was like "can I have your baby?"
And she was like "Well you have to be black, because my baby is going to be mixed!".
We both had the same reaction.
Hence the title.
Hehe.
WHAT A WONDERFUL PAST TWO DAYS I'VE HAD.
Swear.
Okay so yesterday started out pretty good.
Went to school.
Learned something.
Mom took her laptop to get fixed.
Then lunchtime came.
I heated up my pizza and called Mama.
She had just dropped it off and had to wait for two hours.
So she and Josh were going to stay and eat and whatnot.
So that was cool since I had to go intern.
Then I got a text from Mrs. Putnam.
"We have a meeting in 4th period today".
Therefore, I didn't have to go intern.
I was excited.
Until I realized.
Mama can't come get me.
And I didn't drive.
And I have no ride home.
I could have walked.
Because I had my key.
But it wasn't a good idea considering I would be walking through a mysterious trailer court alone.
So yeah.
Then I called Daddy.
He came and got me after I ate lunch.
We went to McDonalds.
He ate a burger and got a big tea.
I got an ice cream cone and a big tea.
We ate and drank, then went to his apartment and watched TV.
Laughed a lot.
Then he went to the doctor's office to work out some stuff with his medicine.
Then went to Food Lion.
Then dropped off the stuff here at home and Mama and Josh pulled up then.
Then we decided to go walking and get some fresh air and exercise.
So Daddy and I walked from here to the Longwood Minute Market and back.
It was about a mile or so round trip.
Nice little walk.
It was great.
Then I came home.
And did my homework.
And my Health test.
And got some things done that I had been meaning to do for the longest time.
Then I talked to Twin.
Then I went to bed.
And slept great, actually.
Now onto today.
I went to school.
Found out that I like Nursing as a future profession, even though I doubt it will happen.
Then basically understood what went on in Math.
Only bad part about my day was that I almost started crying because I started thinking about how much I really do miss Cody.
Like so bad that I don't even want to talk about it.
So yeah.
Then I came home.
And ate pizza.
Then called my Daddy to see what he was up to.
He asked if I wanted to go walking.
I said sure.
While I was waiting for him to come get me, I changed into workout clothes, then helped Mama with a few things around the house.
Then he pulled up.
And I left with him.
We decided to walk part of "The Loop", which is this route throughout the city that people always walk to get in shape.
It consists of four streets that "loop" around and make one big square.
All-in-all it's about 3 miles.
And normally Daddy and I only walk 1 street and back.
But guess what?
Today.
We.
Walked.
The.
Entire.
Loop.
Without.
Stopping.
!
!
!
!
!
!
It might not seem like that big of an accomplishment.
I understand this.
However.
My dad is really out of shape.
And I am too really.
And the fact that we were able to walk 3 miles without stopping.
With no food.
No drink.
Nothing.
Just each other's company.
In the semi-cold.
Is just like.
Wow.
Total.
Wow.
I'm so proud of him its crazy!
Like I'm proud of myself, but him even more-so.
So yeah.
Super excited.
Then we went to McDonalds again.
Daddy felt like his sugar was dropping.
So he got a burger, ice cream cone, and mixed tea [unsweetened and sweet mixed together].
I got a plain vanilla sundae and a sweet tea.
And we just chilled and sat there and ate.
Then we came home.
Then I had to go change my clothes since I still had on my Workout-Wear.
And went out with my Grandma.
Which was pretty cool, for a change.
I was surprised.
So anyway.
Then I came back home and Daddy had just left apparently.
He sat here and talked to Mama and Josh.
So then when I got home I changed AGAIN.
This time just into comfortable clothes.
Then went to work on my homework.
Understood it.
That was great.
Got a lot of homework done.
And that's a major improvement.
So then I folded clothes a few times.
And then worked on my Bracketology.
Watched American Idol.
Talked to Josh while Mama is snoozing away on the sofa.
And actually had a good conversation.
I was pleasantly surprised.
Then I took a shower.
And here I am.
Haha.
So yeah.
My great days.
And if you're wondering why Wes is non-existent in these, it's because he's not here.
He had a case to work on out-of-town.
He had to fly to Miami for it.
He should be back in a couple of days.
Either tomorrow or the day after.
Or maybe the day after.
But I've been texting him and we've talked on the phone, so I'm good (:
I just hope the coming days will be as great as these have.
No walking most likely tomorrow, but I can still get out and exercise.
Volleyball, soccer, running, trampoline, or just walking around the yard.
Either way I'll do something.
So yeah.
OH.
One more good part really quick.
I weighed myself this morning for the first time in months.
Because I had honestly been afraid to know.
Especially recently.
And I figured it would be really bad.
But surprisingly, I'm about 14 or 15 pounds lighter than I expected to be.
So I'm super excited about that.
And I hope that I continue to see similar results.
I'm trying really hard.
It's a long road ahead, but I'm determined not to stop (:
SHABBA!
Aliyah about this girl who is supposedly pregnant.
And on Formspring this guy was like "can I have your baby?"
And she was like "Well you have to be black, because my baby is going to be mixed!".
We both had the same reaction.
Hence the title.
Hehe.
WHAT A WONDERFUL PAST TWO DAYS I'VE HAD.
Swear.
Okay so yesterday started out pretty good.
Went to school.
Learned something.
Mom took her laptop to get fixed.
Then lunchtime came.
I heated up my pizza and called Mama.
She had just dropped it off and had to wait for two hours.
So she and Josh were going to stay and eat and whatnot.
So that was cool since I had to go intern.
Then I got a text from Mrs. Putnam.
"We have a meeting in 4th period today".
Therefore, I didn't have to go intern.
I was excited.
Until I realized.
Mama can't come get me.
And I didn't drive.
And I have no ride home.
I could have walked.
Because I had my key.
But it wasn't a good idea considering I would be walking through a mysterious trailer court alone.
So yeah.
Then I called Daddy.
He came and got me after I ate lunch.
We went to McDonalds.
He ate a burger and got a big tea.
I got an ice cream cone and a big tea.
We ate and drank, then went to his apartment and watched TV.
Laughed a lot.
Then he went to the doctor's office to work out some stuff with his medicine.
Then went to Food Lion.
Then dropped off the stuff here at home and Mama and Josh pulled up then.
Then we decided to go walking and get some fresh air and exercise.
So Daddy and I walked from here to the Longwood Minute Market and back.
It was about a mile or so round trip.
Nice little walk.
It was great.
Then I came home.
And did my homework.
And my Health test.
And got some things done that I had been meaning to do for the longest time.
Then I talked to Twin.
Then I went to bed.
And slept great, actually.
Now onto today.
I went to school.
Found out that I like Nursing as a future profession, even though I doubt it will happen.
Then basically understood what went on in Math.
Only bad part about my day was that I almost started crying because I started thinking about how much I really do miss Cody.
Like so bad that I don't even want to talk about it.
So yeah.
Then I came home.
And ate pizza.
Then called my Daddy to see what he was up to.
He asked if I wanted to go walking.
I said sure.
While I was waiting for him to come get me, I changed into workout clothes, then helped Mama with a few things around the house.
Then he pulled up.
And I left with him.
We decided to walk part of "The Loop", which is this route throughout the city that people always walk to get in shape.
It consists of four streets that "loop" around and make one big square.
All-in-all it's about 3 miles.
And normally Daddy and I only walk 1 street and back.
But guess what?
Today.
We.
Walked.
The.
Entire.
Loop.
Without.
Stopping.
!
!
!
!
!
!
It might not seem like that big of an accomplishment.
I understand this.
However.
My dad is really out of shape.
And I am too really.
And the fact that we were able to walk 3 miles without stopping.
With no food.
No drink.
Nothing.
Just each other's company.
In the semi-cold.
Is just like.
Wow.
Total.
Wow.
I'm so proud of him its crazy!
Like I'm proud of myself, but him even more-so.
So yeah.
Super excited.
Then we went to McDonalds again.
Daddy felt like his sugar was dropping.
So he got a burger, ice cream cone, and mixed tea [unsweetened and sweet mixed together].
I got a plain vanilla sundae and a sweet tea.
And we just chilled and sat there and ate.
Then we came home.
Then I had to go change my clothes since I still had on my Workout-Wear.
And went out with my Grandma.
Which was pretty cool, for a change.
I was surprised.
So anyway.
Then I came back home and Daddy had just left apparently.
He sat here and talked to Mama and Josh.
So then when I got home I changed AGAIN.
This time just into comfortable clothes.
Then went to work on my homework.
Understood it.
That was great.
Got a lot of homework done.
And that's a major improvement.
So then I folded clothes a few times.
And then worked on my Bracketology.
Watched American Idol.
Talked to Josh while Mama is snoozing away on the sofa.
And actually had a good conversation.
I was pleasantly surprised.
Then I took a shower.
And here I am.
Haha.
So yeah.
My great days.
And if you're wondering why Wes is non-existent in these, it's because he's not here.
He had a case to work on out-of-town.
He had to fly to Miami for it.
He should be back in a couple of days.
Either tomorrow or the day after.
Or maybe the day after.
But I've been texting him and we've talked on the phone, so I'm good (:
I just hope the coming days will be as great as these have.
No walking most likely tomorrow, but I can still get out and exercise.
Volleyball, soccer, running, trampoline, or just walking around the yard.
Either way I'll do something.
So yeah.
OH.
One more good part really quick.
I weighed myself this morning for the first time in months.
Because I had honestly been afraid to know.
Especially recently.
And I figured it would be really bad.
But surprisingly, I'm about 14 or 15 pounds lighter than I expected to be.
So I'm super excited about that.
And I hope that I continue to see similar results.
I'm trying really hard.
It's a long road ahead, but I'm determined not to stop (:
SHABBA!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
"You're More Crooked Than The Letter 'X'"
One of my favorite quotes from that movie the other day.
I think it was called 'Hoodlums' or something like that.
Hey, yo.
It's Allie LeAnn.
Snitches.
So, I'm in a significant amount of pain.
My back is crazily in pain.
Like fo. serious.
And my head hurts really bad.
But other than that, I'm doing pretty good.
I just realized that it's amazing how easy life is when you live in denial.
Story of my life.
I mean there's so much going on in my life.
And I just don't pay it any mind.
I'm just like "enhh".
And then I'm happy.
And that's that.
And I don't know what's wrong with me.
And I don't think its a good thing that I do that.
Like at all.
So yeah.
And I also just realized how angry I truly am about something.
Okay.
Kaitlyn and Melody.
THEY.
GET.
ON.
MY.
FRACKING.
NERVES.
Like okay, I know I'm always complaining about something.
And I know sometimes I sound like a broken record.
And there's always 'something wrong' at any given time.
But here's the thing.
They're worse.
Like its something new EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
"My head hurts. So bad I had to take a shot".
"My lupus!"
"My fibromyalgia".
"My COPD!"
"My back"
"My leg"
"My in-grown toenail!"
I mean WHAT. THE. ZEFF.
?!?!?!
If you're going to go as far as an in-grown toenail and seriously COMPLAIN LIKE HELL about that, just stop. Please. Just stop.
But anyway.
Mama and I ALWAYS show compassion.
Even though honestly, we don't care.
At all.
We sit here and actually pretend to.
And its buyable, too.
Like we appear to be genuinely concerned.
Then.
As soon as Mama and I say something about ourselves.
Mama's back.
Mama's Crohn's.
My back.
My chronic bronchitis.
My costocondritis.
Anything.
They.
Don't.
Show.
An.
Ounce.
Of.
Compassion.
Anywhere.
In.
Their.
Bodies.
This is how the conversation goes.
Melody: "I mean my arm has been just about to KILL me, Annette!"
Mama and I: "Oh wow! That stinks! I know how that feels! Have you tried taking any kind of medicine or anything? What about going to the doctor?"
[See, genuine concern. Now check out when we say something]
Mama: My back has just been about to KILL me!
Melody: Yeah. My COPD has been going crazy. And Kaitlyn, poor child, she has a BROKE LEG! A BROKE LEG!"
[See? No concern whatsoever. Another example]
Me: "I swear, my costocondritis has been acting up today and its making my chest hurt really bad."
Kaitlyn: "Well, my leg has been about to die. I just wanna shoot it off, I swear! I've never hurt like this before in my life, Allie!"
Its like they compete with us to see who has the worst medical problems.
Well, they can have that award.
I'll choose being healthy any day.
I mean its ridiculous how we actually pretend to care when we don't.
At all.
Like its so frequent that we can't HELP but not care.
I mean an every day phrase for them is "I ain't never hurt like this before in my life, I swear!"
And...
"My ___________ has just been about to KILL me! Its crazy!".
I'M FRACKING TIRED OF IT.
So yeah.
Just thought you might wanna know.
SHABBA!
I think it was called 'Hoodlums' or something like that.
Hey, yo.
It's Allie LeAnn.
Snitches.
So, I'm in a significant amount of pain.
My back is crazily in pain.
Like fo. serious.
And my head hurts really bad.
But other than that, I'm doing pretty good.
I just realized that it's amazing how easy life is when you live in denial.
Story of my life.
I mean there's so much going on in my life.
And I just don't pay it any mind.
I'm just like "enhh".
And then I'm happy.
And that's that.
And I don't know what's wrong with me.
And I don't think its a good thing that I do that.
Like at all.
So yeah.
And I also just realized how angry I truly am about something.
Okay.
Kaitlyn and Melody.
THEY.
GET.
ON.
MY.
FRACKING.
NERVES.
Like okay, I know I'm always complaining about something.
And I know sometimes I sound like a broken record.
And there's always 'something wrong' at any given time.
But here's the thing.
They're worse.
Like its something new EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
"My head hurts. So bad I had to take a shot".
"My lupus!"
"My fibromyalgia".
"My COPD!"
"My back"
"My leg"
"My in-grown toenail!"
I mean WHAT. THE. ZEFF.
?!?!?!
If you're going to go as far as an in-grown toenail and seriously COMPLAIN LIKE HELL about that, just stop. Please. Just stop.
But anyway.
Mama and I ALWAYS show compassion.
Even though honestly, we don't care.
At all.
We sit here and actually pretend to.
And its buyable, too.
Like we appear to be genuinely concerned.
Then.
As soon as Mama and I say something about ourselves.
Mama's back.
Mama's Crohn's.
My back.
My chronic bronchitis.
My costocondritis.
Anything.
They.
Don't.
Show.
An.
Ounce.
Of.
Compassion.
Anywhere.
In.
Their.
Bodies.
This is how the conversation goes.
Melody: "I mean my arm has been just about to KILL me, Annette!"
Mama and I: "Oh wow! That stinks! I know how that feels! Have you tried taking any kind of medicine or anything? What about going to the doctor?"
[See, genuine concern. Now check out when we say something]
Mama: My back has just been about to KILL me!
Melody: Yeah. My COPD has been going crazy. And Kaitlyn, poor child, she has a BROKE LEG! A BROKE LEG!"
[See? No concern whatsoever. Another example]
Me: "I swear, my costocondritis has been acting up today and its making my chest hurt really bad."
Kaitlyn: "Well, my leg has been about to die. I just wanna shoot it off, I swear! I've never hurt like this before in my life, Allie!"
Its like they compete with us to see who has the worst medical problems.
Well, they can have that award.
I'll choose being healthy any day.
I mean its ridiculous how we actually pretend to care when we don't.
At all.
Like its so frequent that we can't HELP but not care.
I mean an every day phrase for them is "I ain't never hurt like this before in my life, I swear!"
And...
"My ___________ has just been about to KILL me! Its crazy!".
I'M FRACKING TIRED OF IT.
So yeah.
Just thought you might wanna know.
SHABBA!
Monday, March 8, 2010
"I Gave Him Attention, And Then He Was All Cheesy. Like A Puppy"
Quote.
Of.
The.
Day.
Hehehehehehe.
Aliyah is hilarious.
What it is my loverlies?
I'm good.
Having a great day.
So happy.
A semi-productive day at that.
Like 75% productive.
That's 75% more productive than most of my days.
So yeah, an improvement.
Wes is good.
We had a long talk earlier and figured out exactly what each of us wants in the future.
Like besides continuing our jobs and educations and whatnot.
But we both decided what kind of house we want.
How many kids.
What we're going to name them.
All that jazz.
Two girls and two boys.
Amalia Kyelin.
Caridee Nicole.
Braden Elijah.
Robert Isaiah.
I love those.
Hehe.
And we've decided we want a huge house.
Like a rockstar size house.
Which is what I've always wanted.
So I'm happy about that.
Anyway.
Kaitlyn's new boyfriend is super nice.
His name is Hayden.
He's like 10,000 feet tall.
Haha, okay so he's only like 6'6" or something.
But still that's ridiculously tall.
She brought him over to introduce us to him, and I popped around the corner and couldn't stop looking up.
I was like "DAYUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM" as my eyes trailed upward to find his corneas.
Crazy tall.
I mean my dad is like 6'5"ish, but geeze!
Hehehe.
I was beyond surprised.
But anyway, Hayden is really nice and they're so happy together.
I'm glad to see her happy.
She deserves it.
I love herrrr<3
So St. Clair was pretty nice for a change today.
I was surprised.
And happy.
And then I got a pretty good grade on a pop quiz in English.
Learned something in Spanish.
Which is strange since normally I understand it all because I've had 3 years of it before.
Wow, that sounded arrogant.
Sorry.
Anyway, yeah. I actually had a good time in there.
Someone who shall remain un-named got on my nerves, but whatever.
Oh, and Aiden and I talked for a while and actually had a good conversation.
And Winston wasn't a total jerk today.
He actually talked to me and I was cordial.
I wasn't about to let his stupidity ruin the great day I was having.
And I got Daddy's CDs made.
I've been working on them for like 2 weeks.
And they JUST got done.
Ridiculous.
Either way, that's really good.
I'll give them to him tomorrow.
And I'm about to find out what Twin's doing, then possibly look at cars.
Just for the fun of it.
I love cars.
Oh, and to add to my HellaDank day, the weather was stunning.
I was elated.
To say the least.
OH!
And I had a major SUPERMEXICANGRANDESIZED epiphany on something in OSTG.
I just have to approve it with Twin first.
So yeah haha.
Superdupertastic excited.
Whoo!
SHABBA!
Of.
The.
Day.
Hehehehehehe.
Aliyah is hilarious.
What it is my loverlies?
I'm good.
Having a great day.
So happy.
A semi-productive day at that.
Like 75% productive.
That's 75% more productive than most of my days.
So yeah, an improvement.
Wes is good.
We had a long talk earlier and figured out exactly what each of us wants in the future.
Like besides continuing our jobs and educations and whatnot.
But we both decided what kind of house we want.
How many kids.
What we're going to name them.
All that jazz.
Two girls and two boys.
Amalia Kyelin.
Caridee Nicole.
Braden Elijah.
Robert Isaiah.
I love those.
Hehe.
And we've decided we want a huge house.
Like a rockstar size house.
Which is what I've always wanted.
So I'm happy about that.
Anyway.
Kaitlyn's new boyfriend is super nice.
His name is Hayden.
He's like 10,000 feet tall.
Haha, okay so he's only like 6'6" or something.
But still that's ridiculously tall.
She brought him over to introduce us to him, and I popped around the corner and couldn't stop looking up.
I was like "DAYUMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM" as my eyes trailed upward to find his corneas.
Crazy tall.
I mean my dad is like 6'5"ish, but geeze!
Hehehe.
I was beyond surprised.
But anyway, Hayden is really nice and they're so happy together.
I'm glad to see her happy.
She deserves it.
I love herrrr<3
So St. Clair was pretty nice for a change today.
I was surprised.
And happy.
And then I got a pretty good grade on a pop quiz in English.
Learned something in Spanish.
Which is strange since normally I understand it all because I've had 3 years of it before.
Wow, that sounded arrogant.
Sorry.
Anyway, yeah. I actually had a good time in there.
Someone who shall remain un-named got on my nerves, but whatever.
Oh, and Aiden and I talked for a while and actually had a good conversation.
And Winston wasn't a total jerk today.
He actually talked to me and I was cordial.
I wasn't about to let his stupidity ruin the great day I was having.
And I got Daddy's CDs made.
I've been working on them for like 2 weeks.
And they JUST got done.
Ridiculous.
Either way, that's really good.
I'll give them to him tomorrow.
And I'm about to find out what Twin's doing, then possibly look at cars.
Just for the fun of it.
I love cars.
Oh, and to add to my HellaDank day, the weather was stunning.
I was elated.
To say the least.
OH!
And I had a major SUPERMEXICANGRANDESIZED epiphany on something in OSTG.
I just have to approve it with Twin first.
So yeah haha.
Superdupertastic excited.
Whoo!
SHABBA!
Sunday, March 7, 2010
I Wanna Come Out of the Dark, But Breaking Away Is So Hard.
Danity Kane slow jammm!
What it be up to my loverlies?
I is gerddd.
Not God.
Good.
Haha.
Anywho.
Today has been pretty great.
Hardly slept last night.
But when I did get to sleep I slept well.
Then I woke up at like 9 something.
Then watched TV with Ma and Jr while Wes was still sleeping.
Then Kaity came by before she went to Church.
She's going out with some guy.
I hope she has funnn (:
He seems kinda nice.
But who knows?
And Melody came home.
She's feeling a lot better.
I'm so glad.
No one likes being in the hospital, and especially her.
Hahaha.
Oh.
And now.
I must vent my super excitedness.
Please excuse the following:
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
GETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
INNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
FELLASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
82- FREAKIN 50 OVER NORTH CAROLINA TAR HEELS!!!!!!!
YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Yeah.
Duke beat UNC.
Like crazy.
So excited.
So happy.
And my darling boo boo played.
Not JJ, of course.
He graduated in '06.
:/
But JON SCHEYER.
WHOO.
SexyHunkaHunkaFunFaceCake.
Whooooooooooooooooooooooo.
At least I know he can use his hands since he can HANDle a ball ;]
Hehehehehe.
I'm so Shanaynay bad.
Ooh! I need to watch Shane!
I almost forgotttt.
Okay, I went off on another tangent.
Point is that this is Jon Scheyer's last year.
And I'm all sad and whatnot.
And I'm sure Coach K is sad too.
But he just had his 61st birthday, so I'm sure that makes it a little bit better for him (:
I love Coach K.
Even at 61, he has mad game.
Fo. Serious.
I'm not just talking about basketball, either.
I mean he's just supaaa smooth.
As sad as it sounds, when he dies, I wanna go to his funeral.
He's such an icon.
Its crazy.
Speaking of funerals.
It's been three weeks.
I'm getting better about it I guess.
I don't know.
It still hurts of course.
But he's in a better place.
I just keep telling myself that.
I know he's smiling over me right now, and laughing at how ridiculous my life is sometimes.
And he's probably happy up there.
I just hope he waits for me and tells God to save me a spot.
Because I can't wait to see him again.
On that note.
SHABBA!
What it be up to my loverlies?
I is gerddd.
Not God.
Good.
Haha.
Anywho.
Today has been pretty great.
Hardly slept last night.
But when I did get to sleep I slept well.
Then I woke up at like 9 something.
Then watched TV with Ma and Jr while Wes was still sleeping.
Then Kaity came by before she went to Church.
She's going out with some guy.
I hope she has funnn (:
He seems kinda nice.
But who knows?
And Melody came home.
She's feeling a lot better.
I'm so glad.
No one likes being in the hospital, and especially her.
Hahaha.
Oh.
And now.
I must vent my super excitedness.
Please excuse the following:
HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
WAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
GETTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
INNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
FELLASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
82- FREAKIN 50 OVER NORTH CAROLINA TAR HEELS!!!!!!!
YAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:
Yeah.
Duke beat UNC.
Like crazy.
So excited.
So happy.
And my darling boo boo played.
Not JJ, of course.
He graduated in '06.
:/
But JON SCHEYER.
WHOO.
SexyHunkaHunkaFunFaceCake.
Whooooooooooooooooooooooo.
At least I know he can use his hands since he can HANDle a ball ;]
Hehehehehe.
I'm so Shanaynay bad.
Ooh! I need to watch Shane!
I almost forgotttt.
Okay, I went off on another tangent.
Point is that this is Jon Scheyer's last year.
And I'm all sad and whatnot.
And I'm sure Coach K is sad too.
But he just had his 61st birthday, so I'm sure that makes it a little bit better for him (:
I love Coach K.
Even at 61, he has mad game.
Fo. Serious.
I'm not just talking about basketball, either.
I mean he's just supaaa smooth.
As sad as it sounds, when he dies, I wanna go to his funeral.
He's such an icon.
Its crazy.
Speaking of funerals.
It's been three weeks.
I'm getting better about it I guess.
I don't know.
It still hurts of course.
But he's in a better place.
I just keep telling myself that.
I know he's smiling over me right now, and laughing at how ridiculous my life is sometimes.
And he's probably happy up there.
I just hope he waits for me and tells God to save me a spot.
Because I can't wait to see him again.
On that note.
SHABBA!
Friday, March 5, 2010
"Take Off Your Sweater! He's Wearing Something Else! I Saw It Before He Took His Pants Off!"
Quote of the day.
Muahahahahahaha.
Hilarious!
Even though it happened like last week, I was going through some papers and I had written that down somewhere and it made me laugh all over again.
So I decided to name my note that.
Hehe.
Okay, so yesterday was the worst.
I don't even want to begin to explain why.
Long stories.
Like, epic.
Anyway.
Then today was okay.
Better than yesterday.
I went to school.
Got bitched at in History.
My history teacher gave me a book on pop music.
That was cool.
Then went to English.
Didn't have a pop quiz.
Found out what I got on my Hamlet test.
A bad grade, I'll say that.
So in short, my math grade and English grades are going to be epic failures.
Lovely.
Anyway.
So after that I went to Spanish.
Basically did nothing.
Then watched Shane and ate lunch.
How I would have loved to have a ShaneSandwich.
But bologna and mustard was just as good :]
Then I talked to Aiden for a while.
Then went to Liberty.
I was stalked there.
Yeah, he was there.
Terrible.
OH.
And I didn't have to deal with Winston at Liberty.
He went home, thankfully.
But anyway, I'm going on tangents.
Whatever.
So yeah, then I stalked Twin.
Then went to Mrs. Pawley's.
Did a lot of work, but it was fun.
She even gave me this nifty little thing to stand the papers up on.
It was great.
I had entertainment, too.
Monique came in and stayed almost the entire time while Mrs. Pawley was teaching her stuff for the AP test.
Apparently Chelsea was supposed to come in there too, but she had a test to take in Sociology.
But she might be in there on Tuesday or something.
That'd be cool.
Anyway.
Then I got on the bus, came home, and now I'm chillinnn.
Waiting for Wes to get home.
Oh how I love that boy.
Its almost painful.
OH!
Lightbulb.
I meant to tell you, my loverlies, that I am looking into SBC!!!!
I doubt I'll get in, but whatever.
I kinda like them.
And that's like the best of both worlds.
I'm still in Lynchburg, but I'd have to live on campus which is what I truly want.
And I could be with mom and dad everyday.
Oh how lovely.
So yeah, I'm really liking that option.
Hehe :]
SHABBA!
Muahahahahahaha.
Hilarious!
Even though it happened like last week, I was going through some papers and I had written that down somewhere and it made me laugh all over again.
So I decided to name my note that.
Hehe.
Okay, so yesterday was the worst.
I don't even want to begin to explain why.
Long stories.
Like, epic.
Anyway.
Then today was okay.
Better than yesterday.
I went to school.
Got bitched at in History.
My history teacher gave me a book on pop music.
That was cool.
Then went to English.
Didn't have a pop quiz.
Found out what I got on my Hamlet test.
A bad grade, I'll say that.
So in short, my math grade and English grades are going to be epic failures.
Lovely.
Anyway.
So after that I went to Spanish.
Basically did nothing.
Then watched Shane and ate lunch.
How I would have loved to have a ShaneSandwich.
But bologna and mustard was just as good :]
Then I talked to Aiden for a while.
Then went to Liberty.
I was stalked there.
Yeah, he was there.
Terrible.
OH.
And I didn't have to deal with Winston at Liberty.
He went home, thankfully.
But anyway, I'm going on tangents.
Whatever.
So yeah, then I stalked Twin.
Then went to Mrs. Pawley's.
Did a lot of work, but it was fun.
She even gave me this nifty little thing to stand the papers up on.
It was great.
I had entertainment, too.
Monique came in and stayed almost the entire time while Mrs. Pawley was teaching her stuff for the AP test.
Apparently Chelsea was supposed to come in there too, but she had a test to take in Sociology.
But she might be in there on Tuesday or something.
That'd be cool.
Anyway.
Then I got on the bus, came home, and now I'm chillinnn.
Waiting for Wes to get home.
Oh how I love that boy.
Its almost painful.
OH!
Lightbulb.
I meant to tell you, my loverlies, that I am looking into SBC!!!!
I doubt I'll get in, but whatever.
I kinda like them.
And that's like the best of both worlds.
I'm still in Lynchburg, but I'd have to live on campus which is what I truly want.
And I could be with mom and dad everyday.
Oh how lovely.
So yeah, I'm really liking that option.
Hehe :]
SHABBA!
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