Nothing To Lose But Everything To Gain.

So, on a brief note...I'm the happiest I've been in a long time. Last night was one of the best nights I've had in...I don't even know when. I guess the old saying is true, "distance makes the heart grow fonder." It's like this process that we've both been through in the last year, three months, and 5 days has just transformed our entire beings. In particular, the process that we've been through in the last seven months and 4 days has torn us apart, shredded our hearts, and reassembled our love from 1227 miles away.

It hasn't been an easy experience by far. We've been through more shit than the sewer workers in New York City and STILL somehow managed to stay together. But here's my thing. Yes, I know that things haven't always been the smoothest between us. I know that this newfound source of happiness that we both seem to possess isn't going to last forever. But all at the same time, I realize that our relationship has REPEATEDLY been put through the test and somehow, by the grace of God, we have found out way back to each other. For that reason, I think that there has to at least be something there worth pursuing once more.

In all of my previous relationships, I've never been able to say, "I can see myself being with this person for the remainder of time." I have thought, "He would make a great husband," or "Wow, he would be a great father," and similar thoughts, but never, "I can see myself being with this person for the remainder of time." I think that part of the reason deals with the fact that both of us have done a significant amount of growing up in the last few months, and have both had a lot of time to think about everything. You know how people say, "We need a break," or whatever the case may be? In essence, that's what we did, and it's brought us back together, happy and content :).

Well now that I've successfully run my thoughts together and rambled to a point where your poor brain is now spinning, I shall shut up and go about my lovely evening. I hope that you loverlies of mine enjoy your night, and please, whatever you do...don't do anything that I wouldn't do. ;)

SHABBA!

Allie