"I try but I can't fight it."

Allow me to start off this post by apologizing for not doing much blogging lately. I ran into a set of unfortunate circumstances and have not been up to organizing my thoughts until today. At any rate, I hope that you will forgive me and join me in this expedition called "Life" that we have all been subjected to muddling through.

Aside from my "unfortunate circumstances," I have been simply peachy since my last post. I have no room for complaints in any aspect. In fact, things have been quite...peaceful, for lack of a better word. I have had time to make a few revelations and confirm some thoughts that I've been twirling around in my mind for months, even years. Most importantly, I have made leeway in diagnosing my biggest, most important and most detrimental flaw and am taking steps to correct it.

Contrary to what many of you may think, my biggest flaw does not include any form of substance abuse or addiction to any addictive substance. I may give off that impression once in a while considering how spastic and "out there" I act, but that's simply not the case. I am, however, the most impatient person I know, and that's GOT to change. I'm constantly checking my watch (or the clock on my phone because after all, this IS the 21st century) to make sure I'm not late. More importantly, I'm constantly checking my phone to be sure that no one else is late, especially when I need them for something. Waiting for anything to happen is just like being strapped down to a table and restrained for dear life, regardless of what I'm waiting for. The closer the matter is to my heart, the more impatient I become. And don't let me encounter a commercial break during my favorite TV show that takes longer than three minutes. Let's just say that my attitude is not pretty.

My lack of patience has been rearing its ugly head time and time again and slowly protruding its way into my reality, no matter how much I subconsciously try to push it out of the way. In a nutshell, I've learned that it's best to deal with big issues like these as opposed to letting them grow and grow until they're out of control. Therefore, I will add "impatience" to my rapidly expanding list of flaws to correct and push forward in my aspirations, no matter what they may be.

SHABBA!