Lyrics.

Rather than sifting and muddling through my feelings, I figured I'd just post some lyrics that I feel accurately describe how I'm feeling right now. So "Come on, it's gonna be a bumpy ride." - Avant, Making Good Love.


"Let's stay together until we're ghosts, I want to witness love, I've never seen it up close." - Drake feat. Alicia Keys, Fireworks.
"How did I end up, right here, with you, after all the things, that I've, been through? It's been one of those days, you try and forget about, take a shot and let it out, let's get right, now that I'm here baby show me a good time." - Drake, Show Me A Good Time
"I live for the nights I can't remember, with the people that I won't forget, spending all the money I just worked my ass off for doing things that I won't regret. I've been waiting way too long, long, long, long, tellin' everybody that I know we're about to be on, on, on, on. I ain't tryna look like a lie to these n-ggas that I came up with, that's my team, never would I let a [man] come between, what we doing right now, this our dream." - Drake, Show Me A Good Time
"Fame is like a drug that I've taken too much of, but I never ever trip- just peace happiness and love." - Drake, Up All Night
"The way I'm feeling, the things I say, all just happen when you pass my way." - Drake, Shut it Down
"I know n-ggas that would kill for this lifestyle, I'm looking forward to the memories of right now. Never forgetting from where I came, and no matter where I'm headed I promise to stay the same." - Drake, Unforgettable
"You could thank me now and oh my goodness you're welcome, you're welcome. At this point me is who I'm trying to save myself from." - Drake, Thank Me Now
"I'm lost on the road, don't know which way to go. I'm losing my mind, losing control of the wheel and I'm swerving on and off the road. I'm lost on the road, but survival is a must. Don't know who I can trust, I'm living in a rush, I don't understand the fuss, my brain is about to bust. I think I'm losing it, I might be losing it, I just might lose, am I losing my mind? And I'm so confused, I don't know what to do, and I need a clue before I run out of time. Am I losing it? Am I losing it? I think I'm losing, I'm losing my mind. Am I losing it? Am I losing it? I think I'm losing, I'm losing my mind." - Gorilla Zoe, Lost
"Always and forever, each moment with you, is just like a dream to me, that somehow came true. And I know tomorrow will still be the same, because we've got a life of love, that won't ever change, and...every day, love me your own special way. Melt all my heart away, with a smile. Take time to tell me, you really care, and we'll share tomorrow together. I'll always love you...forever." - Al Green, Always and Forever
"Baby you don't know, what you do to me, between me and you, I feel a chemistry. I won't let no one, come and take your place, because the love you give, can't be replaced. See no one else, loves me like you do. That's why I don't mind, to spend my life with you. I wanna please you in every way I can, wanna share my world, don't you understand? Your love is one in a million. It goes on and on and on. You give me a very good feeling, all day long." - Aailyah, One In A Million
"Keep drinking coffee staring me down across the table, while I look outside. So many things I'd say if only I were able, but I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by. You've got opinions man, we're all entitled to them, but I never asked. So let me thank you for your time and try not to waste any more of mine, and get out of here fast. I hate to break it to you babe, but I'm not drowning...there's no one here to save. Who cares if you disagree? You are not me, who made you king of anything? So you dare tell me who to be? Who died, and made you king of anything?" - Sara Bareilles, King of Anything
"Mahalo from the hardest act to follow, lately I've been drinking like there's a message in the bottle." - Drake, Thank Me Now
"Used to be valentines, together all the time. Thought it was true love, but you know [men] lie. It's like I sent my love with a text two times, called because I cared but I ain't get no reply. Tryna see eye to eye but it's like we're both blind, f-ck it, let's hit the club; I rarely sip but pour me some. 'Cause when it's all said and done, I ain't gonna be the one that [he] can always run to. I hate liars, f-ck love, I'm tired of trying. My heart big but it beat silent. I don't ever feel like we're vibing, because every time we're alone it's an awkward silence. So leave your keys on the kitchen counter, and give me back that ruby ring with the big diamond. Sh-t is over, what you trippin' for? I don't wanna have to let you go, but baby, I think it's better that I let you know." - Chris Brown feat. Tyga and Kevin McCall, Dueces
"Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my poker face (she's got to love nobody). Can't read my, can't read my, no he can't read my poker face (she's got to love nobody)." - Lady Gaga, Poker Face
"I'm not the type to get my heart broken, I'm not the type to get upset and cry. 'Cause I never leave my heart open, never hurts me to say goodbye. Relationships don't get deep to me, never got that whole 'in love' thing. And someone could say they love me truly, but at the time it didn't mean a thing. My mind is gone, I'm spinning around, and deep inside my tears I'll drown. I'm losing grip, what's happening? I stray from love, this is how I feel. This time was different, felt like I was just a victim, and it cut me like a knife when you walked out of my life. Now I'm in this condition and I've, got all the symptoms, of a girl with a broken heart, but no matter what you'll never see me cry." - Rihanna, Cry
"I don't know what it is that you've done to me, but it's caused me to act in such a crazy way. Whatever it is that you do when you do what you're doing, it's a feeling I want to stay. 'Cause my heart starts beating triple time with thoughts of loving you on my mind. I can't figure out just what to do, when the cause and cure is you. I get so weak in the knees, I can hardly speak. I lose all control, and something takes over me. In a daze, and it's so a-ma-zing. It's not a phase, I want you to stay with me. By my side, I swallow my pride. Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet...can't explain why your loving makes me weak." - SWV, Weak
"I say, 'can you believe it,' as we're lying on the couch. The moment, I can see it yes, yes--I can see it now. Do you remember we were sitting there by the water? You put your arms around me, for the first time. You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter. You are the best thing that's ever been mine." - Taylor Swift, Mine
"Say you're sorry that face of an angel comes out just when you need it to. As I pace back and forth all this time because I honestly believed in you. Holding on, the days drag on, stupid girl--I should have known, I should have known. I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale. I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stair well. This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around. Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance. My mistake, I didn't know that to be in love, you had to fight for the upper hand. I had so many dreams about you and me, happy endings, and now I know...that I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale. I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell. This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town. I was a dreamer before you went and let me down. Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around." - Taylor Swift, White Horse
"I gave you the benefit of the doubt, till you showed me what you were about, your true colors came out, ohh. And your words couldn't hide the sin, because the truth about where you've been, is in a fragrance I can't recognize. Standing there, scratching your head, bloodshot eyes, drunk with regret. Hanging yourself ten feet over the edge. I'm done with this feeling like an idiot, loving you I'm over it. I just don't love you, don't love you no more. You, you are so yesterday, never thought you'd lose my love this way, now you're here begging me to stay. Oh you, you are so yesterday, I won't let you rain on my parade, don't wanna hear a thing you say. So yesterday..." - Toni Braxton feat. Trey Songz, So Yesterday
"You're better than the best, I'm lucky just to linger in your light. Cooler than the flip side of my pillow, that's right. Completely unaware, nothing can compare to where you send me, lets me know that it's okay, yeah it's okay and the moments when my good times start to fade...you make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed, sing like a bird, dizzy in my head, spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night. You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe, shine like gold, buzz like a bee. Just the thought of you can drive me wild, oh you make me smile." - Uncle Kracker, Smile
"When it hurts, will we still be the same two lovers all over each other? When it hurts, will we still see what we've got together, promise that we'll never ever be, temporary (not another), ordinary (nuh uh)? We should change people's definitions of love. So forget what you heard--the only way that this will work, is if you love me, when it hurts. Will you love me when it hurts?" - Avant, When It Hurts
"It's undeniable that we should be together. It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never. The basis is need-to-know, if you don't know just how I feel, so let me show you now that I'm for real. If all things in time, time will reveal, yeah, yeah. One, you're like a dream come true. Two, just wanna be with you. Three, [boy] it's plain to see, that you're the only one for me and, four, repeat steps one through three. Five, make you fall in love with me. If ever I believe my work is done, then I start back at one, yeah yeah yeah." - Brian McKnight, Back At One
"Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live oh, take take take it all but you never give. Should have known, you were trouble from the first kiss--had your eyes wide open...why were they open? Gave you all I had and you tossed it in the trash, you tossed it in the trash, you did. To give me all your love is all I ever asked 'cause, what you don't understand is I'd catch a grenade for ya, throw my hand on a blade for ya, I'd jump in front of a train for ya, you know I'd do anything for ya. I would go through all this pain, take a bullet straight through my brain. Yes I would die for you baby...but you won't do the same." - Bruno Mars, Grenade


There are so many more lyrics that I could post, but I think you get the idea.
I'm a crazed, semi-psychotic, spastic teenager with a cornucopia of thoughts and emotions running ramped through my veins.
I'm probably in need of a mental evaluation.
And I'd be willing to guess that you, yes you, never knew what I was going through.
You never knew that my entire day was filled with thoughts of stressful things and hard feelings.
Then again, you may have known.
Seeing as how you read my blog (hopefully).
But at the end of the day, one of the biggest things that I struggle with is perfection, or a lack thereof.
I constantly feel the need to be perfect, although the realist in me knows that being perfect is simply a myth.
It's merely a figment of the imagination.
I think that of all the lessons I've learned recently, the most important one is that I'm not perfect, and I never will be.
I'll always be a little crazy.
I'll always be a little moody.
I'll always be a little insecure.
And I'll always be...Amber.
I'm sad to say that if you can't handle that, then get out of the rodeo suckaaaa, because this chick is here to stay.
Wow...I just went Texas Country and Compton Ghetto all in the same sentence.
Help me?

SHABBA!